Failed binge - progress ?

So, at work tonight (I work at a sandwich shop) we had a batch of french bread that came out looking wonky, so my manager said we could eat some and would have to throw the rest away. Now, I have been working on following a carb-restricted diet (for the health benefits and bc carbs just make me feel icky) but for some reason, I thought to myself that a few bites of bread wouldn't kill me, plus I just felt guilty about it going to be thrown out. So, I had some bread, and honestly didn't feel too guilty about eating it.

But at the end of the night, we had some more bread leftover that was going to be thrown away. Again, feeling guilty about wasted food, and honestly just wanting to eat the tasty bread, I told my boss I'd take some. I took home two loaves of french bread and 6 slices of wheat bread (our wheat bread is super thick and nutty). I also took home two oatmeal raisin cookies (which are also no-no's for me).

I was all excited to eat the bread, but when I got back home and tried to eat it, I just...couldn't. The wheat bread just didn't taste good (and I used to LOVE it). I took maybe a bite or two out of each piece - even the ones I put cream cheese/butter/etc on didn't taste good. And I ate maybe 1/4 of one french loaf. I just couldn't get through it. I did eat the two cookies, but even just that plus the small amount of bread hardly constitutes a binge.

I took all the bread that I didn't eat, and threw it dramatically off of my balcony. And then when I returned the butter to the fridge, I picked up a bowl of mac n' cheese that my roommate made...and then immediately set it back down, closed the fridge and walked away.

It's weird because I felt like I was in the mindset to binge, but my body just said no.

Progress, I guess...

Morgan, that's great! Good job! I really think that once you give some of that stuff up for awhile, you lose the taste for it.

You're doing great - I'm so excited for you!

Aw thanks! That really encourages me. Last night I was really down on myself, but this morning I'm realizing how much of a turning point last night was. I actively failed at binging, lmao! It was more of a cheating snack, than anything. I didn't feel like I was out of control, I stopped myself before I ate the mac n cheese, I didn't feel like I was going to burst, I didn't turn to my razor afterward, I got right back on track with low-carb this morning, didn't turn it into a binge day...

I've given myself a challenge this morning, no binging for 1 week. Then, I'll go 2 weeks. And so on. I can do this.

Yes, you can totally do this!

You can do definitely. I have so much confidence and belief in you. Once you break a habit especially food wise, it's hard to go back. Most of our binge foods are things our minds are telling us we want, but once we can break the habit, we can taste them for what they really are. I think that's what's happened with you and the bread. I'm so pleased for you

Thanks guys. <3

Haven't binged "properly" since Monday, now.

Binged last night...

(((hugs))) It's a hard habit to break, but you're actually doing really well. Hang in there.

Was there something specific that sparked it? Maybe something you could plan a go-around for if it comes up again?

Yeah, I was high. Munchies will be the death of me. But not only do I get munchies, I continue binging when I'm sobering up. Luckily I'm almost out of weed though and plan on taking a tolerance break once I smoke the last of it, so things are looking back on track...

7 days binge free!!!!!!

Wooo way to go Morgan

Huh, I think I'm about 19 days binge free now.

Feels weird, but good.

OMG that's amazing I'm so pleased for you

You are an inspiration

Wow, that's great!

that brilliant hun xxxxxx

you can do it xxx

I know it's lame, but weed is a definite no if you're avoiding binging! It not only makes you feel more hungry than you are, but puts you in a total "who cares" state of mind.

Sounds like you're working hard and its paying off, so good for you. Always remember the great feeling you get when you're losing weight and eating well, and how terrible you feel after binging.

Just some tips: picture yourself eating what you crave, it tricks your body into thinking you've eaten more. Smell food before you put it in your mouth. Chew at least 15 times before swallowing (you'll get use to doing this, and eventually not think about it)

x