Just wanna end it...

Sipping my rum and cola... Wondering what it's all about... (If you've ever played Zuma, it might sound familiar)

Yes, I do have a stellar career. I do have a boyfriend who cares about me... But...

We had a coffee today noon/early afternoon at his local coffee shop. And a girl/bartender (whatever) left just minutes before we did. In my rear view mirror (as I was taking off from parking lot), I saw them (bartender girl and my bf) going towards his place together...

So, why bother? She's much, much, MUCH skinnier than me... Yes, she's 3 uni degrees "short", but - she's hotter... And thinner... Significantly...

I haven't eaten anything since... I might not eat anything ever... But my rum and cola... 'Till I grab the biggest kitchen knife I have and end it all... My life is miserable - it should end, right here and right now...

Have you called him yet? Are you still online? Message me on Facebook. Don't do anything silly

Still miserable... But don't think I'll do anything drastic... Thanks, Lorna love!

Please dont do anything, what are you going to do about it? Confront him? I think if that was me i would definitely need to know whats going on so i could move on if he has cheated.

Hope you will be ok, dont let him get you down, you are better than both of them. xx

Ditto Louise - you're worth so much more than that. (((hugs)))

Did you mention once that he was a trainer? Perhaps it's not what you think?

Supposedly, it's not what I think...

However, it got me worrying about being so vulnerable... So easy to snap...

Thank you all for being here for me <3

Glad it wasn't what you thought, but I'm sure I would've thought the same thing. Head games suck, and ED head games are the worst, because we can't get away from them like we can when it's someone else messing with our heads, you know? I'm sorry you had such a rough time of it. (((hugs)))