Mind Babble

Part of me says to leave this site for a bit. Most of you are in recovery mode and I am not. Since I've been in FORCED recovery I've become bulimic instead of anorexic. Purging isn't my thing but I can't restrict =/ Though I would miss you all, and love you all.

Part of me says to leave tumblr if I am recovering for it is a huge trigger for I love all the people I follow, which are all weight loss blogs -.-; but I could care less if it's a trigger, I see it as motivation to stop this unwanted recovery.

I am not ready to recover, and I never was. Forcing it on me has made my depression more frequent and I am constantly crying over food and weight (though I don't know it) because I can't see my bones like I used to. I need recovery to end and for them to let me be >.<

Im not in recovery, and i was abit wary of posting things incase i triggered anyone. I cant see myself ever recovering. But being on here helps, its nice to read the recovery board and think maybe one day ill be in that frame of mind.

Do what you feel is best for you. Its your health that matters the most. I will miss you if you leave though!

It's completely unfair that you are being forced to recover. If it weren't for your age, it wouldn't be happening. I don't see how forcing you to eat more is considered 'recovery'. I don't want you to be scared off just because a lot of us are recovering. Maybe we could have a section 'Not recovering' and then anyone who doesn't want to risk being triggered can avoid that section?

That would be really great - I myself am not in recovery, which makes me extra careful about writing something triggering... Having a "Not recovering" section would allow us to speak more openly about our daily struggle and take care that we're safe at least.

that would be really great to have that section... and thanks guys.. i dont REALLY wanna leave...

Well good because I would never let you. I'd miss you too much

Aww thanks <3 I'm waiting for the day we all recover and make a new site just so all of us can keep talking xD