I give in.

I have been trying to be halthier. Not purging, not taking diet pills, eating more. Still wanting to lose weight but trying to fight the end thoughts a little bit. But, I give in. I am exausted trying to keep food down, done talking myself into that snack becaise I should, done with fighting the urge to stwp on the scale. I need to go back to losing weight.

I failed at being a good person and a good role model, amd a normal person.

I'm feeling this way. I've hardly purged lately and I've been eating 'properly' and I hate it. I'm far too scared to weigh myself and despite what everyone is saying, I feel fatter than ever. I'm thinking of going back on my diet pills and seeing if that helps. I feel like if I'm not on a certain diet or I'm not purging x amount of times a day, then I'm failing

I feel the same way -.-; purge all the time. need to exercise more though... wish i had diet pills...

But youre still a good person, a good role model for trying and for other things, and you are normal <3